She had to hide It somewhere. Somewhere safe. So, she cut herself open, quickly, before anyone could see It. It had to be hidden from view from prying eyes. From her own eyes.
The pain of the cut was nothing compared to the pain Exposure would bring. Or so she thought. She shoved it inside her chest cavity, wedged beneath her lung, impeding her breathing, but just a little. She could deal with it. Hopefully.
She cleaned up the blood and hastily stitched up the wound, much more concerned with the functionality of the stitches than the aesthetics.
She didn’t bury it as deep as it could go. It was a somewhat superficial burial, but an effective one, nonetheless. Too deep and It could do some serious damage to the internal organs. Too shallow and It could burst through the artificial seam, undoing all the work she had put into harboring It.
Because of Its relative proximity to the surface, sometimes It pressed against her wrinkled scar tissue, making it stretch… itch… ache. She ignored the nagging tension when she could, and tried to press the bulge down just a little deeper, with minimal success, when it became too much. Eventually It would subside on its own, even if only to resurface later. An internal iceberg she hoped wouldn’t sink her.
She covered up the slight bulge and occasional redness of her jagged scar with a polished wardrobe and a carefree attitude, so no one would suspect she was hiding something so ugly underneath. Inside.
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12 thoughts on “The Secret”
You are on a roll. Deep. Love it.
hot or cold. no lukewarm.
Ugh, I’m so familiar with burying things like that. I like when you said, “Eventually it would subside on its own, even if only to resurface later.” So true. Love it.
Thank you. And so sorry you understand so well what I’m talking about (but glad to know it’s not just me)
Pain and healing . . . and more pain and more healing. What a process. I hope the healing wins.
Beautiful 🙂 😦
Thank you. Love both the faces 😉
Your post left me feeling rather bittersweet and as yet I haven’t found an appropriate smiley so I made me own 😉
I think I have one of those now. How to take it out so life doesn’t explode is the hard part right? You’re such an amazing writer…
Brilliant, as always.
Your words are only too real for me. How I wish those around me understood what you so eloquently write.
Some do. Some.